talks by me

happy day to you guys!!! it's monday today and so far so good! i woke up because i had to pee, it was really early but i know that if you hold in pee, you get kidney stones and you have to get surgery. i've been in an operation theater before when i was 10, the procedure was to keep your nose clean or something to do with sinus. im grateful i had it cause i rarely sneeze and when im in class the thing i hate to hear the most is another kid sneezing cause we all sit close and its loud and gross and just bad. sissy woke up the same time i did and she made toast for me!! yay!! so i had toast with a cuppa and then i took my shower, and tried out some new origami which i was just doing before starting this post. i have mastered the crane and dinosaur and the next thing for me is to master the lily. the lily was the worst , the furthest i got was to the part where you mark the diagonals and the halves of the origami paper. i will try again though! i know i can and i will succeed.
im feeling motivational! if you're feeling anxiety, or tiredness and fear. just do something fun!! i was really stressed last night and i had my bad thoughts again but i know how to fight it now. it took me a year to discover it and i hope this helps you. you see, i know that good people who are hopeful for good things and want it bad will have whatever it is that makes her happy. there's good! the excellent future in store will happen as long as in your mind you tell yourself you will do your sterling best for it. thing is somethings your bad thoughts eclipse the good and they tell you all the evils you dont want in your life. if you exclaim. proclaim and just know in full confidence that as long as you DONT ALLOW the negativity in your head, youre actually preventing your scary thoughts to happen. i'm not living to be bitter so dont waste away, just like im trying not to. let I DONT ALLOW IT, be your mantra. IM A WINNER sounds good too. anyways, i needed to keep my hands busy to keep happy so i was going to the thing that makes me happiest, post an update but my laptop was at 7 percent battery and the outlet in my room was charging my tablet. a fun thought i had was to play with my sister's make up because i see her do it a lot but she was out for drinks and i couldnt take it without her knowing. i folded some clothes them ma said she needed a card for a friend's birthday so i got some coloured paper and i had the idea of making origami so that's how this fad started for me. it's fun and i recommend it for the art junkies out tehre.
i had a wonderful meal last evening of chicken curry and apple soup! love it!! also my dessert was what i looked forward to the most. ma got me Butterbeer like the fictional drink that existed in HP and it tasted fantastic!! really sweet, really bubbly and i will definitely get more!
dad's train to KL yesterday traveled there with no problems. so on friday the tracks got derailed and 100 cargo trains went all over the place, messing up the tracks so dad didnt know if his train could take him back on Sunday but it arrived yesterday hurray.
i tried a new snack too yesterday. it's called Gold Fish and they were packed in the cutest paper bag and they taste amazing! i will go much some now and i'll be back. always.
love my lovelies

Doctor Strange beats Dr Seuss

hello you gorgeous people!! im just got back from the cinema and now im in my room, all comfy. i like that feeling when youre so wiped you just lie down and the bed feels 100 times softer and like God fluffed your pillows for you. that's alos how i feel when i just plank on hotel beds -they may not change their sheets, and dont mention the thread count but their comforters are usually perfect for me.  i dont know where you position your screen at, but make sure youre giving that content exhaling sound.

i watched this movie i heard about from my sissy about 2 days ago and prior to that i have never heard the movie, Doctor Strange(DS) before. she's a movie junkie and said it was good so i gave it a shot mostly cause Benedict Cumberbatch (Sherlock Holmes!!) was in it. today's a public holiday so the crowd was expected but we got great seats. DS checks all the boxes for every superhero/supervillian movie: a) protagonist is rich, b)protagonist is smart, c)protagonist gets into unexpected incident, cheats death, hits rock bottom and d)gets powers no one else has. also, e)has a love interest because they can't be rumored to be gay. unlike most superhero/supervillian movies, Doctor Strange gets his powers via magic, not by some science experiment went wrong. my favourite thing about the movie is the special effects, hands down. there's talk of infinite universes, separating body from mind, and bending space and time. mostly, the big screen showed the other end of the kaleidoscope. imagine the buildings started rotating around you and you were just a pedestrian... i often wish i could get cast in movies, but the entertainment industry doesnt exist where im from. 

i asked my mom her favourite line in the movie and she said it was by the Ancient One, "you dont lose your demons, you rise above them''. mine's by Mordo and he said, ''fight like you're fighting for your life, cause one day you might be''. it's a great movie, rotten tomatoes gave it a 96%, i'll give 95% just for kicks and if you're looking for something to watch, i say you have my blessing and give yourself a break. it's action and humor in a food pyramid diet, all proportional.

i got an early start to the day at 8am and like every normal person, i checked my phone and i see a text in our fam chat group with sissy asking for a morning call the next day and i was going to then i realised that i dont have the house number for our other house so i go to my parents room and they said they saw the text too but it's for tomorrow then i argue saying today's the next day even if the text came at like 1am last night. in the end, like most times, i was right and the call was meant for today. breakfast was beef noodles and fried wanton-just for me- and it was good though the restaurant was a sardine can, and we waited quite a bit. i like sardines.

last night's dinner was both rice and noodles and i liked it. good choice for dinner!! then we wanted to walk for a bit so we went to a mall, got Arizona tea, and this new drink i found that's supposedly the drink of my dreams, butterbeer from Harry Potter, except this is butterscotch beer from the flying cauldron as opposed to the leaky cauldron in the books.

i bought an umbrella cause it's been raining and now it's snug in my bag.

i really do miss my sissy when she's not around. ma is calling for tea, i have some sushi to munch on and i think i heard her say rice. be back. love my lovelies

festivities and apps

hey! hey! you! you! it's Thursday and i have a surprise coming for me this evening! dad's arriving from KL and he got some Halloween candy for me. yess (i dont plan on sharing, sissy)!! im proudly Chinese and my clan's culture doesnt delve much into the whole westerner's celebrations like Halloween or St patricks day. imagine a venn diagram, there's one circle with what i celebrate and another what my favourite american tv shows (like Friends, Glee and iCarly) show to be super important holidays. it'll look something like a null set but in the tiny area where they overlap, not visible with the naked eye, you'll find Christmas. hahaha!! im super mega excited because no one can ever hate on FESTIVITIES!!!

yesternight was a night of discoveries and here goes:
a) musical.ly - ive know about the app for forever, or at least since RiceGum started the series, This Kids Must Be Stopped. never intended to try it for the obvious reason that i dont actually have a phone and my tablet would make it super hard to record myself lip syncing. but i found out that there's 50mill downloads on the app store so i tried it! and i love it! admittedly it's hard when you're using an 8'' screen but i like the whole acting out part. definitely a must try and i have no regrets. it's all tweens and teens so course it's rated U. HAHAHAHA
b)i realised i have not cut garlic in almost 3 years. i was helping out ma with dinner -we had fried rice with soup- and i needed to peel and cut the garlic and i thought... it's been a while.
c) i really want to start working on my channel again.

right now my lips are drier than icky jerky so the skin is peeling off and im feeling like those crabs when theyre molting.

on tuesday our dinner was a luxurious one of pan seared salmon with mash potatoes and gravy. ma did the fish and i worked on the potatoes. we went to a store to get gravy mix and there was none so we went to another and we found it. potatoes with gravy makes me happy.
the adventure to stores was fun though. i was stuck at home the whole day.

i woke at 8.30 today, an hour earlier than normal and i had my fruit, my drink and some cookies. i want to make a burrito for lunch and we'll see ho wit turns out. sissy's at school but she's going for a movie tonight so i will be the only child for dinner. what we are having is still a topic to discuss. i gotta dash. love my lovelies

Three Dark Crowns book review

hey you gorgeous people!! ive been cooped up in our little apartment for about 48 hours now because there's no school anymore but im in kampar. i got here sunday night after a noodle dinner and when we reached we immediately drive to mcdonals for ice cream, specifically the Reeses peanut butter mc flurry. it was amazing! i actually used to love peanut butter so much that whenever my dad made sandwiches for school(which was everyday), i'd want a chunky peanut butter filling and i was the happiest person alive. also i used to love this Japanese pancakes called Dorayaki and they always have a filling in the middle and i always got one of 2 flavours, chocolate or peanut butter. the best ting about buying it is you may have a chance to see the machine at the stall run when they make a fresh batch and it is so cool to see batter coming out like the bullet through the barrel.

yesterday i woke at 9.30, worked till 11.30 because i wanted to make lunch. i made pasta which was super good but i poached egg didnt work out so i will try again later. today i woke at almost 10 and i had cookies with hot cocoa. i was supposed to make mash potatoes for lunch but i dont think so now because the fridge is void of butter!! i tried searching for recipes that dont require butter and all the substitutes are things that i dont have either like puree cauliflower or sour cream. i might try it with just oil though.

okay so the book i bough during the weekend was Three Dark Crowns by Kendare Blake. I LOVE IT!! it's the hybrid book-child of Hunger Games and every Rick Riordan stunt ever. the story's about 3 queens, each part of a triplet, and they are the latest generation to follow their culture of each queen having either a power of a naturalist, elementalist  and poisoner. a few months after turning 16, they have to battle, get married and the strongest queen will have to kill her sisters in order to live because there can only be one queen.
the elementalist queen is the strongest, able to summon thunder while her sisters live thinking they have no powers as the naturalist cant bloom a bud and the poisoner can barely eat mushrooms. thing is, the strong queen doesnt want to kill so the priestess say, 'we'll have to kill the 2 queens ourself'. that doesnt go as plan and in the end, the naturalist queen ate some tainted chocolate but didnt die and she finds out that she's actually the poisoner sister.
now, my ma was a bit skeptical about allowing me to buy the book because of the title and the fact that i get scared easily but there's nothing gory about it. if you can get through HArry Potter without pissing your pants, youre good to go. it's really exciting really, all the anticipation for the battle scene in the book. i flew by the pages in 2 days. the talk of magic is really cool, kinda spooky but it's all under good light and i tell you, Black's brilliant for cooking this story up.
i really want the bookworm in you to go to the mall and pick a copy for yourself. you might like it?

i need to try poaching my egg now! wish me luck. love my lovelies

happy weekend

hello friend!! i'm home alone now but not for long. ipoh's good, it just rained and i panicked about the laundry outside but there was none so everything's fine. i got here at about 6pm friday and we went straight to the mall. dinner was Kenny Roger's chicken and it was a first time for us in about like a decade. not to throw shade or anything but i love nandos 10 times more and KR really needs to up their sauce game. on the plus side, KG's mac and cheese was on point. then i went to MPH to get a book and to collect stickers because for every rm50 spent, you get a sticker and when you have 4, you get a notebook and not that i need one but i wanted one. so i found a book i like and at the counter the lady says 'you get a 25 discount if you buy another item so do you need a pen or something?' then i go, 'that's lit! let me find my mom' then i spend 10-20 minutes looking for her sissy and i could slap her for waiting outside. that's just rude and selfish cause i wasnt done with my purcase, why couldnt she be normal and wait in the not at all crowded store like any normal human. by that time there the cashier was like scanning for another customer so i waited behind. then the cashier asks,'do you collect stickers? there was a customer who wasnt collecting them and said to give it to the next person'. then she goes(all old and drunk) and slurs, 'okay' and with what she bought she had a sticker and got 3 free stickers so she got the notebook. right now im still at one sticker and i dont know if i can ever forgive her. she took a fancy gel pen and made me pay for it. ME urgh. i was just so bitter cause i had wanted it and the redemption date is next week and will i ever get a gift?! again, i do not need it but i do like gifts. trying not to be bitter here!!

i'll work on a book report for my book soon.

we went to get some drinks for the house and i got a root beer for fun and i havent had one ever so it seemed like another night for discoveries. i drank a bottle at 9pm and that was the biggest mistake of my life. the sugar kept me running till 5am and i had to be up by 9 the next day. one good thing that came out of it was that i got to thinking about youtube videos and what i want to do to expand my channel, content wise. ive got many things planned for my year end holidays and i have this to add. i am legit super pumped to keep moving.

the next morning i had a dim sum breakfast and we were at the restaurant by 9.30 and it was pouring and there were so many people and we found a good table that we traded for a smaller one cause an old frail lady demanded so. i hate it when old people talk like they're so helpless but it's okay cause it may have been her last day and we didnt cross her or anything. i actually dont intend to live beyond 40 years. im only half way there and i dont imagine myself go all hippie saying, 'life's a gift' while i pet my tree. life's fantastic for me now so maybe i shouldnt think too far ahead. dim sum was great. i had tea and sticky rice and fried cakes so all nice.

i went home and at 2 sissy asked if i wanted my eyebrows done this week because not long ago i told her i wanted her to bring me along next time she gets her's done. thing was, i was tired and i had my book and the internet and it was so hot out that i said i didnt want to go.
dinner yesterday was fired rice with a chicken drumstick.

i woke up early today cause of sissy's alarm and i had a pocky breakfast and then i did the laundry and showere. pocky is the best food ever! thing is when i was a kid i would bring them to school almost everyday and they were called Rocky and there were only 2 flavours of choc and strawberry. i had a cookie and cream one this morning.
lunch was a yummy pretzel and i wish i had ice cream now.

i need to pack. see you soon my lovelies

little discoveries #1

hello everyone!!! it's 2pm and ive been awake for about 3 hours now. happy friday guys. i dont usually get up at noon but i had a late night fighting crime in the city. HAHAHAHAHAH i didnt. i had my lights out by 12am but i couldnt sleep till 2 so i stared at my ceiling, singing songs and working on ideas for my youtube channel . i really do like filming and editing and the most fun -is funnest a word?- idea i had was me learning how to skateboard. i thought that since i know how to drive a car, ride a bike, why not learn some tricks on a skateboard. i thought about how to execute it and some issues came up. 1)i havent owned a skateboard since i was 10 and2)i dont want to get more scars on my legs. but it was fun to think about though. i dont even have a good camera yet.
i woke up unnaturally today and i read that waking unnaturally makes you more easily tired during the day but i dont think so. the phone rang and it was my mom calling me to say shes going to pick me for lunch and it was a fun lunch because we both got noodles. unlike most people i can wake up and eat whatever. like my appetite wakes with me and i dont have to have a warm up of like an hour before my body can digest food.

yesterday night was a night of discoveries (my favourite kind of night).
1) MattyBRaps. he's another Jacob Sartorius just better looking and he's been famous longer. he raps and does youtube and like i do for celebrities i fancy, i dug up a backstory. mattyb was news since about 5 years ago when he rapped to defend his sissy with down syndrome from bullies. that's pretty cool.
2) i did a bmi test and the range for normal was 18 to 24 and beyond 24 is overweight, below 18 is underweight. the formula is weight(kg) over height(m) so for me it would be 48/1.56 which gives 30 so apparently... i cant even say it but i actually do feel it. screw it though, i think the world has unreasonable standards for women now. congrats, Trump.
3) nothing will stop me from doing what i want as long as i work towards it.
4) i want to start an NGO one day. i even did some research on how to do it. it's not in-depth yet cause im only so young but here's what i know: i) you have to register yourself online at some malaysian governement website, ii)have at least 7 members iii)pay a registration fee and a yearly fee iv)your ngo's name must be in Bahasa because this is Msia after all and v)you must have logo.
what will my NGO be based on? that's for me to know.

i was just watching some youtube and then ma whatsapp me this link and i check it out. if youre too busy to open it, it's news about a refugee boy doing swell in his studies and gets a degree and he credits a foundation called Dignity for Children for his education. im pretty well verse with the organisation as 4 years ago i did a fundraiser with some friends and directed the profits at them. it's nice to think that the little we gave had a role in this guy's career.

i'm heading to ipoh later in the evening and im excited. i've got some things to think about. since i have a week break i could fit a book in my time no problem. question is, which one? see, life's full of being spontaneous. gotta pack. love my lovelies.

i love my life

hey you gorgeous people!! i missed being online so much it actually physically hurts to not post an update. it has been the longest fortnight in forever but i have been away because of my A levels. they started last week and tomorrow is the last paper for the week. next week will be a break and then resume the week after. i realize that the papers are a huge deal to the eyes of the world but to this blog means more to me than anyone will ever gauge.
if i had to state my latest obsessions:
-barbie songs!! my favourite is the sound track from barbie princess and the pauper and barbie the island princess. i like singing along to it(like i always have) and the lyrics are so profound and it really speaks to me like my fav from p&p is from written in your heart ('you're always free to begin again; youre always free to believe') and my fav from island princess is from I need to know(' i have to know these answers, i have to find my way; seize my tomorrow; learn my yesterday'). i needed a blast from the past to make me feel a lot better about myself and that i am who i am!
my friend doesnt agree about the whole barbie is inspirational deal. she's working on building her youtube channel making covers and she said i get to pick a song so she cant go back on her word just cause barbie isnt her thing. well i dont like phantom of the opera much anyways.
-crosswords! ive said here many times before that i love love love puzzles and i love word search but crosswords are a whole new territory and i and enjoying it. im not at an advanced level yet but i will get there. also the name of the dots on dominoes are pips.
-the next one goes to all the fam... dark chocolate with almonds!! we've been getting a bar a week thanks to dad and they're spectacular. the best are wittakers from newzealand.

the past weeks have been really ordinary. ive been doing pass year papers, notes and praying basically. so the first day of exams i text my best friend from high school, hows the paper been? and then she goes, oh dude we dont do the same syllabus and i totally had no clue. the days are fine and sometimes i fit a nap in or if it's a gym day, me and sissy get our workout. we actually went today i got to try out something new. it's this machine that is like a standing up bicycle because you pedal but you grab the handles and your hands push back and forth. real fun.

i guess i should talk about ma's super awesome food about now. lunch was spaghetti and i found out that yesterday was national pasta day so we should have got a medal. we had pizza and squash soup sometime this week. over the weekend i had a mcd breakfast, a reeses ice cream and the best duck rice ever. i am legit blessed. thanks family!!

if youre enduring exams right now, there may or may not be under a dark cloud but here's somethings to think about.
-you dont have classes anymore. go home.
-pretzels dogs are the bomb and halal is a term to distract malaysia from things that actually matter like a better school syllabus
-troye sivan is the best gay person ever. LGBTQ long live
-I AM GOING FAR!!

okay it's dinner time and mom made rice! yummys!! gotta dash. love my lovelies