the darkest post ever

hello everybody!!! it is 10.30 so i have been awake for an hour now. i just got my laptop back from sissy and i am finding a truckload of files that arent mine and i cant get rid of them in case she needs them again. story goes, we arrived in kampar at 8 last night and as we unloaded the trunk, sissy went, 'shit, backpack's not here' and course she had to have an exam the next day. we couldnt drive back so we helped her make do with what we had. thankfully i was over prepared for my exams that just ended so i gave her my stash of new stationery. the biggest issue was she needed a laptop and so she took mine. i didnt mind really, i mean i saw how red-faced-angry-stressed she was so course i wanted to help. this was bigger than laughing when your buddy trips. plus i know how important exams are better than anyone. but to be honest, i was a bit unhappy that with her using good ol' lappie, she was killing the time i could have used on photoshop(only 3 days of trial left). i havent even got to trying to edit videos yet. so far i have been doing a lot face swaps of me and greyson chance(shocker) and some funny ones with my fam's faces. i legit have the best mom ever! she supports me and thinks the programme is cool and laughs at all my funny edits. to all the close minded parents out there, just chill and dont kill yourself when there's a funny edit of you somewhere. speaking from personal experience, it's the worst thing when adults think that I, a super cool teen, am set on ruining their lives by having fun with technology. okay, get this(blood's boiling), I HAPPEN TO BE PRETTY SMART, YA. AND I KNOW THAT I SHOULDNT SHARE LIKE PRIVATE INFORMATION ONLINE SO YOU BREATHING DOWN MY NECK ABOUT NOT REVEALING CRUD LIKE THAT, IS PLAIN INSULTING. adults thought i was ruining my life by getting facebook and hah! i'm still above ground. it sucks if they dont support your interests. like, 'oh im sorry i dont want to live life as a blind, deaf and dumb person to society with no positive outlook on life, have no fun and die of boredom. NOT'. it just sucks. Most adults just have no sense of humor.
so, happy thoughts! we have 40 mini candy canes in the house, cookies and candy and i get to try an apple crumble recipe whenever i want. it's monday and i am doing my favourite thing in the world-BLOGGING. i have origami to try and photoshop effects to learn. ma is bringing me and sissy to penang next month. yes, i feel much happier now.
im going to have to get ready for lunch. here's more edits OF ME that i am proud of and want to share. these are for my youtube channel and i like them. see you lovelies

needed somewhere to display this

guys i am still obsessed with photoshop and only 4 days left in trial and guess who whipped this up!

ME!

tell me if you think it's brilliant! gotta get myself to the train station now. love hearts

learning photoshop

HELLO YOU GUYSSSSS!! it has been awhile and i miss writing about my day here. im in ipoh, in my own bed, wiped from half a day at the mall. i know in the previous post i said i would post my original story about a dragon and some cranes but it physically pains me to say that it's only half done so im giving you one of those 'coming soon' adverts you see in the movies that i strongly dislike.

i had a nandos lunch, that's pretty common i know but i didnt a drink with it but i got a strawberry-watermelon-banana iceblended from juice works. i got more origami paper too. these are different from the ones i already have, like they have little shiny hearts and stars patterns on the paper and they cost more. i did shop for clothes for a while then decided against it when i remembered i might to pay for a camera sometime soon. i honestly have been waiting for far too long for my camera and -mom can vouch for this- i am the least patient person in the whole world. as a kid i would fuss if i didnt get the toy i wanted there and then because i always feared other people would buy it and the toy manufacturers would stop producing that paticular toy and life ends there. that cycle's messed up, i know but like i said, i'm impatient. it's funny because i love word search, and anyting puzzle related.

i have had plenty of time on my hands for the past 3 days since exams are over and my 9-5 job yesterday was messing with my free trial of Photoshop. It is AMAZING! I keep telling my mom i cant believe i spent one too many years not messing with the programme. for now all i know is pretty basic, like how to crop out faces, add faces, and how to draw shapes. im pretty sure there's more and i am hooked. here's my favourire project so far:

ISNT THAT COOL!! that's my squad goals. one thing i realised from messing with photoshop is that i dont enough pictures of myself. that pic of me was from last chinese new year. i dont even look like that anymore. the only album i have is from last year's grad party and chinese new year. i mean, i have short hair now! i realise that may have seemed kinda vain and i am not narcissictic, trust me. but imagine this, if i went missing, my family wont have a valid pic of me to use in the 'missing person's' flyer. i have never gotten on the selfie bandwagon(still think it's stupid that's it's in a dictionary).

yesterday dad got back form kl and it is always a joyous occasion especially yesterday because we had prawns, squid and fishcurry for dinner. prawns are my favourite food, since as long as i can remember but they leave me itching an hour later so i am on pills for that. itching sounds gross but trust me i stratch with grace and elegance. dad got yummy imported grubbies that i love and the best yesterday were the peeps. they are chicken shaped marshmellows and we got caramel apple and pumpkin spice latte flavoured ones. we got peppermint patties and goldfish too.

i fell a sleep at 12 plus, watching danny phanton, a classic-just like american dragon- and gosh i like sam and tucker so much, theyre hilarious. before falling asleep, i remembered how special yesterday actually was. it was pocky day!! and i had a box of oreo pocky for breakfast. HAPPY BELATED POCKY DAY GUYS! this morning sissy reminded me that yesterday was also singles day(gosh it's raining outside). singles because the dates, 11/11/16 so all the ones are just one. hahaha brilliant. 

i nearly forgot about this but i was dying to mention it here, i have a new website!!! yay!! PROUDLY PRSENTING, my new website . do check it out, it'll make ya a lot smarter hahaha. it's a free website, really easy to make and i had it in the editing process for nearly half a year because i was super busy with school and whatnot. i realised after visiting it was that it was ready to be put up but for some reason i kept it as draft all the while. anyways it's up now, have been for about 2 days now, send love and get excited.

before i go to my cartoons i must tell you what i had 2 dinners ago, i went a restaurant called, kbab and they served korean food so ma and i got kimchi udon and dumpling ramen and they were so good and the portions were just fish tank sized bowls and they were super good i hope we go there again. it's late now, thanks for being here, love my lovelies

last day of school

hello everybody!! im at home, it just rained and the cold air makes my blanket get worlds cozier. there's so many events that have taken place since last update, i need to get it all down... IN A LIST!
1)i took my last exam paper today!! woopie!! im ecstatic, im relieved, im optimistic about the future
2)today's election day for US! which also happens to be the day i find out that the malaysian government has no more funds for free healthcare because there was supposedly too many patients. i dont intend to go to jail(that's an amos yee's thing) but i have to say, i'd rather have Trump running malaysia than um... say the guy on the hot seat right now. also 2 seconds ago i heard that canada's immigration site crashed cause too many people want to leave now that trumps leading.
3)i have found my old favourite disney cartoon, American Dragon!! tv aired a lot more quality cartoons a decade ago compared to now. think about it: i had totally spies, danny phantom, hey arnold and jimmy neutron and they were the best shows to watch after school. not really up to date with whats the hottest cartoon now but im hearing a lot of 'sofia the first' and 'doc mcstuffings'. i will now predict the storyline for both shows which i'm sure is about right. 'sofia the first' is about this toddler, sofia who is the most vain and selfish 3 year old in the world. she has to be the first or she dies like Rue from the hunger games. every episode is about the lengths she goes to to be the first in everything including making up royal titles like having I or III or IX. wait i got reminded of my 3 year old self for a second. I MUST ALWAYS BE THE FIRST AT EVERYTHING! say we are saying our bedtime prayers, i have to say mine first and after i say them, everyone in the room must say, 'GOOD PRAYER'. kinda funny when you reminisce on the younger you. im gonna guess that 'doc mcstuffings' is about a 3 year old who watched doctor doolittle one too many times and thinks she's like his descendant except her animals are all imaginary and her parents arent worried but play along which leads to no friends by first grade. also she becomes vegetarian freaks when she finds out that meat comes from animals which i didnt know myself until late in life.
4)i had tea with the Queen of england. okay not really but i might as well had. sissy took me out for tea and i dont get to see much now that she's got all these clubs and fun activities going on but she made time to take me out for waffles so that made me a very happy me. we wanted bubbly hong kong waffles but the cafe was just about to open so we went to a different(BETTER) cafe. i got a waffle platter and it came with chocolate sauce, ice cream, strawberries and grapes. sissy just had a latte for herself.

5)my groove with origami leads me to writing up a story about dragons! that's a picture of my tower bridge model i made a while ago and on the right is a black dragon origami waiting to prance on a purple crane origami who is the sentry of the bridge. it's pretty long so i will have it as tomorrow's post. this image was what reminded me of American Dragon in the first place. if you dont know what it's about, it's about this teen new yorker who is half white and half chinese and his chinese bloodline enables him to morph into a dragon at will and he uses his powers to fight bad guys from the magical realm.
6)i need a list of things i plan to do with my short break. time to make one NOW!
also ma just got home! love my lovelies

sue and ma adventure

hello, hello there! i have a half hour for this update before i have to get dressed for dinner. me and ma will be having roast chicken at Kenny's. im just going for their muffins if im honest. ma is at the dining hall marking papers and im all cozy on my sissy's bed in ipoh. she didnt come home this weekend because she's got plenty fun assignments to do. one of them required my help-an overstatement as it was just filling out a survey- and i was super generous with my help of course.
ma took me for lunch at a nearby fried noodle place we havent been to in ages. it was next to a fruit market where we used to get our bananas and persimmons from but we dont anymore. now we get our apples and oranges from a van perched next to a main street every saturday. good lunch always makes me crave ice cream-anything reminds me of soft serve- so mom thought we'd go to the mini mart on the way home for ice cream and get some car parking coupons there too(i miss those meters and feeding coins into them). so we're in the neighbourhood right, and ma parks a great distance away from the mart, like 2 blocks and she asks, 'is this too far?'. honestly, i dont mind walking but we passed ample parking on the way and she could have picked a munch closer one so i say yes and she parks again, on motorcycle parking and makes to get down. there i was, all innocent and so confused and then she goes like, 'wait, where are we going?' and i crack up.

My laptop was asleep for 2 hours and now i have already had my dinner, im stuffed but content.

today i woke up to a phone ringing, not mine but my mom's. we got dressed and went out for a roti canai breakfast and i had a hot cup of tea. i have drank a lot of types of tea in my life and i think it's not as healthy as everyone seems to put it. i mean, the organic ones in bags with no sugar might be good but in other forms, they are sweet, probably had a tonne of pesticides in it and let's assume your heart can stop from having yellow teeth. next stops were the gas station, the bank and the market. i must describe the market, it's a goldmine. it forms a perfect rectangle, with 90 degree corners and the individual stalls, all rigid in order form a frame for the market. in the center of it, there's a green grass patch( for decor, im assuming) and bougainvillea plants. the patch's like an oval shape so i imagine if you look from above, it'll look like an egg with a green yolk. wait, it may have been Roald Dahl's inspiration in green eggs and ham. hahaha. the entrances are super high security because you're not supposed to have a car in the walking path. ready for the elaborate explanation here. there's a waist high fence, aluminum painted green. and it forms a maze like this: -_- so you have to pick left or right direction to turn to, to ultimately get to the same spot. the walking part's like a red cobblestone walk and there's stray cats sprayed everywhere like confetti after the birthday bash. i didnt pay attention to the stalls but i do know how the one selling pork looks like. the front is a curtain of meat. this butcher's stall inspired Gaga's meat dress. then on the front of it is a tree stump the height of 8 year old me and it's their chopping board. i wish i could paint the smell but i held my breath so i'll make it up. say it's the smell of the fishpond that hasnt been cleaned for a year and there's a Happy meal floating around on the surface.
im still in the same position as when i started, on sissy's bed. ma and i should have been at church but dinner took a while so we'll miss our communion. last night i fell asleep rereading 'me before you'. i cant wait for next wednesday and i will tell you all why then. i have my holiday projects to put to action soon honestly im super excited.
i think i will get to my origami now. today i will have my 3rd attempt at a dragon. yesterday was an improvement from the first time so we're getting close. 3rd times the charm isnt it?
sleep sound lovelies

dinners

hi, gorgeous people!! i had my lunch and a brilliant dessert of coffee with ice cream. it was so good!! i dont really fancy coffee but i heard of this italian-style coffee called and affogato which is black coffee with vanilla ice cream on top and curiosity won the best of me and i got rewarded. my friend is still at school but im home now, just had lunch of my leftover lasagna. my surprise for mom turned out excellent by the way! it took me an hour to make and here's my step by stop: boil pasta sheets, chop onions, garlic and veggies, fry them, add mince meat, tomato puree, water and mixed herbs and let simmer. it was so fun to assemble the whole dish and i managed 4 layers of noodles. sissy and mom loved it! she was so happy! we're going to dinner tonight, to get sushi and then get the ingredients for mom's bread pudding.
yesterday night i made the decision to close 3 of my 5 ear piercings. i had 3 on my right ear and 2 on my left. i got them some 2 years ago when it was cool, now it's just annoying to keep changing all them all the time or they'll smell rancid. i think it's important to care about appearances so you'll always be pleased when you look at the mirror and feel good. to get there, work out, use hand creams, all that minor things. the really pretty you see on tv, all plastic, smoke, mirrors and makeup. be you and no one can take away the amazing person you are. point is, whatever you do, do it for you and not to please the world cause they never notice. im growing out my hair and it's at that awkward stage where it's too short to tie but too long to be untied so i went to school looking like a kindergardener with 2 short ponytails at each side of my head. i thought it was weird but when i brought it up at class, no one had noticed. no one noticed the piercings too, a total waste of cash if you ask me.
today's paper was a good one, with only 2 questions and few subquestions. im counting the days till the 9th to be honest.
i got 55fans on musical.ly now and i showed my friends what the apps all about because they dont know so on the featured section someone did a mannequin dance to juju on that beat and it was hilarious but weird at the same time and course cause it's funny i wanted me and my friends to do it too but we wont.
last night mom gave me a notebook and i used it and i loved it! i always feel the best when i have pen and paper, like everything's all right with life. im so blessed to have words.
im thinking of watching a clip from Shark tank before getting to my work today. also the project with my musketeers are at go!
love my lovelies

lasagna surprise

hello people and non-people! it's almost lunch now but im still full from breakfast for cookies but a genius idea came to me that i can surprise my mom with dinner. yesterday mom made a sumptuous dinner of prawns, chicken and eggs and it was a tonne of work so she said she's too wiped to make dinner again so today she'll be taking me out for dinner but i thought, why not surprise her with... LASAGNA. we have everything in the house: meat, pasta sauce, lasagna sheets and other things. i'll get to it at 3pm because i dont know how long it takes to cook so might as well be early.
yesterday night i attempted 2 new origami models, a rose and a butterfly. key word here being 'attempted'. the rose never made it to the final step because i didnt get pass the 3rd step without being helplessly confused and when i showed my sissy the butterfly, she guessed it was a wilting flower. origami has been a lot of fun and tonight i will challenge myself to do paper cranes blindfolded. oirgami takes a lot to precision and focus and i like it cause it stems the flow of the thoughts youd rather forget.
i made rice yesterday at 3pm and i know because i set an alarm to remind me to get the rice in the cooker. i had a paper yesterday and it ended at 10am but most of the class stayed till lunch and we discussed a class trip. it was the worst discussion possible because every time we decide on something, someone else changes it and back to square one.
when i got home from school i texted my high school bestie and we discussed our short film we're working on. it's going to be about our gang of 4 and how we got separated after graduation. it's a work in progress, but having multiple projects really keeps me busy and i will only do and think things that are lovely and pleasing and not destructive. the NGO project is still on it's way.
i have no class today so im relaxing, maybe do origami and read a bit. sissy is out and will be back late.
i was thinking of how much this blog means to me and then it hit me that i actually had an almost-blog when i was about 7. the computers were big and white back then and i mean desktop computers not laptops. dad introduced me to microsoft word where you type things like formal documents and you can add pictures to it. he started one document with me to teach me to use it and i named the doc, SUSANNA'S STORY. everyday i would write in it like a journal but the funny part is every sentence was in numbered lines. for example:

1. my name is susanna ooi.
2. i have school today.
3. my teachers name is ms crazy.
4. dad will drive the Saga and pick me up at 6pm.

i've changed desktops twice since then so i dont have that document any more but i do recall having at least 200 sentences.
gotta dash. christmas is coming!! love my lovelies