Chinese new year 2020

Hullo gorgeous people! it is the eve of Chinese New Year and i am super exited for tonight. the fam has been planning a super hot pot dinner for a while now and its finally happening tonight. theres soup boiling now in the kitchen and we have so many of my favourite fish balls and veggies lined up. we reached ipoh yesterday around the evening and we did some spring cleaning too.
the house is super stacked with snacks and drinks and ive been eating so many of them. i like really cripsy stuff so all the deep fried fish snacks and nuts are really nice to have around. im also a huge fan of mandarin oranges and im super good at peeling them. if there were a contest for orange peeling i'd win it for sure.
since its a festive season, there hasnt been much to do out of the house. plenty of stores are closed and the malls are beyond crowded. sometimes shopping crowds get really rowdy too. plus, theres an influenza virus spreading, thats super dangerous. i do realise that in public a lot of people dont know the proper etiquette when it comes to coughing or sneezing so its best just to stay home. stay safe, everyone. i strongly recommend not leaving the house actually. home base is the safest.
ive been catching up on my rest and i didnt know how much i needed it. university life is tiring. with the extra time on my hands ive actually been reflecting on life. sometimes it gets a little scary so i try not to do it so much. it's a new year, im turning 22, super close to when people have that quarter life crisis. im already 2 years into my second decade and i have no idea how the time just passed me by.
i like to keep busy and channel all my energy into positive thoughts. ive been saying. 'i love myself' a lot cause i feel all giggly when i say it. it may sound a bit narcissistic but i think i'd rather love myself than hate myself (something i learned about from a netflix show actually). when i say it im also reminded of how blessed and how loved i am. ive even planned a surprise valentines gift for myself this year. i cant wait to do a valentines day post.

im super thankful for this laptop that mom and dad got me this year. its the coolest laptop ever and i get to watch netflix, play games, and write my blog post on it. it's been keeping me entertained a bunch. but i also have to use it for school stuff. and a lot of school stuff too since theres so many assignments and presentations to do. i really like gaming and i have a game in my head that im gonna target next. its called Overcooked and it seems really fun. i watched some streams and its so funny. i really wish i could do super cool streams too but i think i need a lot of fancy camera equipment. i used to like watching mukbangs and i wanted to stream mukbangs then when i watch gamers stream, i wanna stream myself playing games. the constant is that i really wanna try it. its a signnnn... i have to do it someday. i really miss making youtube videos actually. i promise i'll get back to making videos soon too. my pink camera is the cutest.
yesterday i had a super fun family lunch💓. i wish i made a youtube video from that. we had yee sang and really nice tea. i was really excited about that lunch. it was the first yee sang we had this year but i was excited for more reasons than that. its almost dinner and i should get ready.
see you later alligator.

happy 2020!!

hullooo you gorgeous people!! this will be my first post of the year 2020 so i'll be wishing yall a happy new year a little bit late. HAPPY NEW YEAR. 😇
2019 went by pretty quick but thats okay cause ill be looking positively forward toward the future. i didnt do much to celebrate the new year but i did have a sushi party and a pizza party and it was super. i didnt do a post for the whole month of December last year but that was because i was so intensely busy. i had finals and family stories happening. i wont talk about it much but i will say good news is that everyone's fine and healthy now👏. that month was a really big month of maturing for me. i had to study for finals, do so much traveling by train on my own and it was also the first time i drove to KL on the highway. i also had the least contact with family at this point. everyone was going through something so i had to take care of myself, my meals, making sure i eat veggies, stay hydrated and also financing all my groceries and travel costs. im thankful that i was able to be there for everyone as well as maintain my own health.

a new semester will start about a week from now and im looking forward to my new classes. this holiday has been a quiet one. i didnt go on any trips but im enjoying spending time with my mantao. im always going to remember how blessed i am to have him. driving me places, encouraging me when i feel like a potato and taking care of me when i dont feel well. this year was the first time in my life that i spent christmas on my own. i was sick with an ear infection and the antibiotics didnt help until the last dose. i felt cold, dizzy and i couldnt eat. when the headache was too much to bear, my mantao called at just the right moment and i felt better once we talked. the day after christmas he came to find me all the way from a trip he was on.

my safety 💓

right now my mantao and i are resting up as much as we can before the rush of the new sem kicks in. we're playing a bunch of computer games and ive come to like it maybe a bit too much. there are a few games that i wanna write so much about but i think i'll save that to make a whole post about it. i like cute, farming games and the one that im playing all day right now is Stardew Valley. it is the most fast paced farming game ever and its so much fun. i tried playing the mantao's favourite game, Overwatch, a couple nights back and there was so much yelling involved. it was fun to finally try it out but i dunno if i can play it on a regular basis. 

other than gaming we have also unofficially adopted 2 stray cats. these cats were hungry and they made too much noise around the house so we decided to feed them- George and Georgina. Georgina is actually a preggo cat so we're reading up on how to care for her and the kittens. we feed them twice a day and play with them when they start screeching for attention. there are more stary cats around and as much as we would like to feed them too, our resources are limited and we dont wanna make our cats jelly. 

i havent made any new years resolutions but i wanna make sure that this year i will pay more attention to my health. physical and mental health alike. also i promised someone that this year i would start tracking my finances haha. i will chose to move forward in the year with happiness and love. 

time to say goodnight. see you later alligator.

new asus vivobook laptop and big eyes

hello gorgeous people, I'm writing this blog from the mantao's computer again but i actually have a new laptop. Thanks to my super cool daddy who picked out the world's best laptop for me.💝 i just got my asus vivobook A412 last weekend and it's a classy grey clour that i love. for a long while, I had problems with getting my Microsoft office 2013 to work on my new laptop and i just got them resolved this morning. my office licence was a permanent one and i didn't know how to transfer them to my new laptop even after deleting it off my old laptop. this morning it all worked out and im so happy to have that finally resolved.
i love this laptop! it unlocks with a fingerprint sensor and its so lightweight. the frame around the screen is so slim so you get most out of the 14''. the keyboard lights up so it has that super cool gaming computer vibe but i turned that off for now cause i have it feeling itll drain my battery and i can see the keys just as well. the memory is pretty big so if i wanted to game itll totally work out for me. i actually have a few games already downloaded. one i really like is iron snout and its about a ninja pig fighting off blade-wielding wolves.\
so far ive been using the laptop for watching my netflix and the graphics are all super good and the sound too. i havent tried using the webcam yet but i will get that tested soon when i try streaming.
today i had a little bit of a late start cause i was just so exhausted that i only woke up when my mantao called me. we also went out to breakfast today and got noodles. its been a while since we had a breakfast date actually and i had a lot of fun💓
we did a bunch of chores too like getting food, changing a broken container and getting the car cleaned. im so thankful that mantao accompanies me on these errand trips because its sometimes a lot to deal with on my own with parking and carrying stuff in and out. he does get tired sometimes and i understand because hes been so busy with his schoolwork. im so blessed.
mantao s also not feeling well this week cause he has an eye infection. hes on antibiotics and getting better now and the swelling has gone down. his eyes were actually big and hurting a few weeks ago but it went off after he used some eyedrops. it came back and we got it checked. he will get better soon, in time for our super road trip to kl this weekend. its been a while since we ve done a trip and he deserves a fun, relaxing time for all his hard work and effort hes been putting into his mushroom thesis. i'll keep finding ways to do surprises for him cause i really like doing it💓💓💓im so excited. i need to get on pinterest nowww....
see you later alligator.

laptop and bird problems

hello gorgeous people!! im doing this post on a whole new setting. my laptop totally gave up on me like a week back so now im depending on my mantao's computer and maybe the PC's in the library. i kinda like my mantao's computer cause its big and the tippy tappy sounds of this super keyboard makes me feel like im using an old typewriter thing and the lights are pretty cool too.
so i was halfway through an assignment when suddenly there was a black stripe across my screen and turning it off and on didnt get rid of it. i took it to an asus service center but they said it would cost 450 and take about a week to get it fixed. my laptop is about 5 years old right now and maybe its time to get a new one but i really liked my asus zenbook. i bought it just before my GCSE exams and i i studied so hard and got really good grades so i thought it was a lucky laptop. also i have butterfly stickers on it and i like them cause i got them on a butterfly farm trip with my dad.
i managed to get my assignment done and soon i will need to get slides done too. ive been looking into new laptops now and i havent found one in particular that i like yet. i dont have many requirements for a new laptop cause its mostly for work and messaging and streaming but i dont game and need all the fancy speed stuff.
today in particular i really missed my laptop cause i really wanted to edit a video i just filmed. its a mukbang of me eating a giant pizza jelly. i guess ill just put pause on that for a while. but i will get back to it.
theres a lot of stuff ive been meaning to do but i havent got to it yet. like i really wanted to start a scrapbook and learn more origami and get into candle making but i havent done any of them yet. i started with searching up places where i can either get bees wax or soy wax but theyre kinda hard to find. also i really want to do a puzzle but i left all of them in ipoh and i wont be going back for at least another fortnight. i like doing puzzles and i love reading but thats also on pause. for now i guess what i have going on is netflix and i really appreciate sissy for paying for our monthly netflix💓
this sem is a slight bit slow going cause my regular baby shark gang isnt here so i did freak out over finding an assignment group but im so blessed that for both my subjects i have managed to find groups easily and with people i sorta know and they were nice to invite me into their groups.
another thing thats been going on with school is the whole utar ambassador thing.
so last wednesday i was supposed to be on duty to bring a bunch of china students on a campus tour but when i opened my door to leave my house, there was a scary bird perched on the door grill. if i moved the wooden door to go out, the bird would fly in. i tried so hard to shoo it away; i used a broom, i threw the baby firecrackers at it and i played gunshot sounds on my phones but it was like a stoned bird and nothing freaked it out. i tried making a run for it and it came so close to me i cried. also i left the car keys in the house so i couldnt get to class. my mom really came through for me. she drove home all the way back from work to get rid of the bird for me. she really is the strongest woman i know. i was crying and she kept calm and told me that she would handle it for me. i am so blessed.
often times its easy to forget that you have been so blessed with so much and act out all ungrateful and brat-ish. but then you can always come back from it and redeem yourself. i really really needed my mom to be with me that day with the bird and im so blessed that no matter what happens, regardless of anything and through it all. she will always be there for me and i hope i will be able to do the same for her.
right now shes on an amazing adventure and i cant wait to tell you all about it but its late now and i need to sleep cause i have a class tomorrow.
talk soon guys. laters alligator.

your 20's are for you to figure shyt out

hello gorgeous people!! it is a cold monday morning and it actually has been raining so much in the past weeks. im actually a fan of this weather except for the part where there might be a flash flood during this time.
so much has been going on lately. i think my last post should be scraped off since i am not actually moving back to ipoh. it took time to realise that i dont actually like ipoh as much as i said i did. the thing is, when i moved back, it occured to me that my life isnt based in ipoh and i have nothing going on for me there. Sure we own a house, but i dont know any people in ipoh. my life's all settled in kampar for now. the first week of my stay in ipoh was so hard on me. im so thankful that my dad was there to help me acclimatize to the new environment in ipoh. happy happy
despite that i found it hard to live in ipoh. other than my dad i had no one around. it was always silent around me and it was so scary staying alone and being left with your own thoughts. in the internship office there was no one to talk to and when i came home the lack of company continued and that loneliness is so emotionally draining. maybe some people will interpret this as me being needy or immature or attention seeking. but theres a reason why people in solitary confinement almost always lose their sanity.
im most thankful for my mantou💓 who was always encouraging me throughout the hardest of days. ill always remember all the things he would say to me when i would call him crying, straight out bawling my eyes out. thank you for all the sacrifices you made me for me bb. and thank you for always prioritizing my happiness.💓

over the weekend i did a lot of thinking and i decided i cant continue with the ipoh move for another 3 months. my spine was killing me from the life i was living in ipoh. i needed to see a doctor so bad and when i did, i got a needle in my ass and was so close to getting admitted to the hospital and getting an MRI. with scoliosis, im not a stranger to getting x rays and being poked and prodded all over but i was hearing of the possibility of doing an mri for the first time. i  know people only get it when they have concussions and that sometimes people's teeth fall out after the mri.
i got a doctors letter for my university and a 2 week MC to get off any office work or whatever. also im under so many meds and theyre muscle relaxants so they get me all groggy.
if all my paperwork with the hospital and the uni goes through, i should be out of my internship by this week. so i guess im extending my study. im strangely okay with that fact. a year ago i was obsessed with completing my study on time and i said that by hook or by crook i would never extend my stay in kampar. with me postponing my internship itll take an extra 3 months to graduate and im bummed but i know its not the end of the world. people grow up at different speeds. the 3 years of uni is just a guideline. there are people who have figured out their whole lives by 22, played everything by the book, stayed right on the tracks. like sissy (nerd). but there is no fault in swerving off the course and letting things play out on its own. i remember a rant i posted after my a levels, about how stupid standardized tests are and how we rate our future based off the scored but theyre nothing other than random numbers given by luck and circumstance. i know that regardless how hard it gets, i will graduate. ive always given my best shot and im not going to slow down based on a bad lecturer, or a bad grade or a bad experience. and im not gonna stay bummed about the extra 3 months because what's 3 months more in a uni compared to 30 years youll prolly spend working in the field and whats 5 years of studying compared to 50 years of a fulfilling, content life.
(it's wednesday night now) the sem is gonna start next monday and im just enjoying the last few days of sem break before all the nerding up starts again. i think i'll prolly plan a picnic trip or something fun. the last week really took a toll on me and my skin started acting up. i woke up this morning and there were red patches on my left cheek and that really freaked me out. im happy that i got it checked out and and treated so it's less red now. i have the best chauffeur in the world💓, who took time out of his incredibly busy schedule to bring me to get checked and also driving me around regardless the weather. im the happiest girl. home really is where love is.

three days before i move to ipoh

hello gorgeous people!! blogging is super cool thats why im back. ive been watching a lot of how i met your mother recently, me being on sem break and all and im super pumped that blogging comes up a lot in the show. im not sure if blogging counts as social media but i much prefer spending my time on my blog than on my Fb or ig accounts. im actually not on either of those sites now haha.
im always most bloggy when im on sem breaks but this time my holiday is shorter than normal because my coming sem is an internship. thats why i'll be moving back to ipoh for 3 months. i dont know how i feel about it though... i was super excited for all the shopping of the work clothes and snacks for my stay in ipoh but now i dont actually feel anything, its kinda like, 'oh well, lets get this over with'. i mean its just an internship. i have to move back to ipoh where ill have a house to myself but lets be real, i dont live in the world's safest neighborhood. the street lighting is bad, there's always dodgy people rounding the place at night and the only security i have is a small rusty gate that might as well not even be there. even our locks dont work. well, at least we have wifi. i would get a guard dog if i werent so afraid of dogs and preferred the tiny ones you carry around in a cute purse.
so the company im with is a jewelry retail place and i think its super that i got it because i really like shiny stuff and omg i want so many diamondsss hahaha.

BOUGHT NEW WORK SHIRTSSS

for the remainder of my stay in kampar, it's gonna be a lot of cleaning up, packing and just sleeping. i have been sleeping a lot to conserve my energy and just catching up on all the sleep i lost during finals season. i did have a lot of all nighters. maybe i'll do a youtube video if i feel like it. but for now its been a lot of netflix and sleep. also a lot of eating too.

ALSO I CUT MY HAIR 

i realised that i havent had a post up since my birthday and i can say so much has happened since i turned 21. ive had close friends graduate, ive had conflicts with people im not acquainted with anymore and ive had one or two car accidents and also many a meltdown due to academic stress.

HAPPY CONVOOOO

regardless of everything thats happened, im still labeling 21 as my best year yet because it's also the year i found someone special to go through all that girl drama with me. im so blessed to have my baby mantou. thanks for always being there for me and for everything you do to make me super happy 💓💓💓

MANTOU

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life update (21st birthday)

Hello gorgeous people! its been super long since my last post and so much has been up! i'm done with most of my school work for now so i decided its timeeee. i keep trying to recall what super fun things ive had going for me since my absence and honestly other than my birthday, i havent been doing much.

Speaking of my birthday, IM OFFICALLY 21 NOW GUYSSSS. SUPER FUNNN!! being an adult is a huge responsibility and im really enjoying life as it happens. i feel good about being at this age at this point in my life. now i can vote for government, go to bars and drink in public and i think i should invest in property soon! Yay ADULTHOOD. 

on my birthday, dinner was a super simple cause it was weekend and no one booked any plans so we were super spontaneous. we went to a restaurant in a mall and i got pasta and it was yummy! then we went to get cheese cake because i like cheese cake especially creme brule cheese. ahh 

we walked past a puzzle store and sissy got me a fun, little puzzle to do cause i love doing puzzles a lot and it was so much fun to do. it was a really cute design too, a disney tsum tsum one.

After one mall, we hit up the mall next door for some ice cream. we went to haagen dazs for ice cream and i got us a chocolate fondue and it was so good!! we had sides of mini ice cream balls, sides of fruit, brownies and cookies. it was a really fun time with the fam.

also what's been happening is i recently extracted two of my wisdom teeth and am now recovering from that too. it just got really painful one day and i was like in my room, feeling like death and crying so hard. the pain was only on my left side so i had both upper and lower wisdom teeth removed. it had to be don one by one so the top went off first since the lower one had an infection. a bit later the bottom one came off and it was harder than the first since there were stitches involved. during these two weeks, i couldnt eat solids so i lost a bunch of weight which im now getting back. it was an experience tho.

im gonna go rush to a class now. see you later alligator.