when you look back

hey everyone! it is a wet morning in kampar. it started raining about an hour ago. i was out on my bike and i felt a drizzle so i made a quick turn and came home. i really like cycling and stuff. so anyway, its raining really heavy and i think its been rainy for a week now? maybe that long.
last night i googled 'utar carpool app' and i found it! it is called U Drive! you guys should check it out. i think there's like a thousand downloads. yesterday, i also found a website where you can stream Fresh Off the Boat for free. iflix shows you until season 2 but there's actually 4 seasons. here's the link: Fresh Off the Boat. the show is about a Chinese immigrant family made up of a mom, a dad, a grandma and 3 kid boys. the series is actually based of a memoir written by eddie huang and that is also the name of the eldest kid character in the show. it's actually great comedy. there s no focus on the struggles of fitting in as a non white in a white country. but its like a regular family show just based on chinese people. GO CHINESE PEOPLE. the kids are actually really cute. my favourite is the middle kid and his real name is Forrest wheeler. it's a real name and it reminds me of forrest gump which is also another character i like. he's handsome and he looks really tough too. check it out:

cute, no?

this morning has been a morning of discoveries. i discovered that i am really bad at choosing 'friends' and i am really naive and that is a very dangerous trait to have. i really regret that in the past i chose a lot of wrong people to give to my support to. i supported people i thought were real friends because i couldnt see past their front and see their real intentions.
my real personality is naturally a supportive person. i get that from the folks. happy!
the thing is in the past i have supported people i thought were 'friends' but they were real fiends. i have said this before but i will say it again. PROTECT YOUR OWN DREAMS. dont let the negative 'friends' bring you down or say you cant do stuff. people are always jealous of me thats why they tried to bring me down. i wasnt careful enough to see that but now i will try to be less naive and be more sure of the people i hang out with in the future. i will keep working hard and move forward. i hope those people who are or were like the victim i once was will chose to create their own path and ignore the haters who try to tell us we cant but we can and we will. we can and we will is actually a line from my friends salutatorian speech. i havent spoken to her i liked her because i know she is genuinely nice. well guys it is getting late so i have some things to get to. see you soon.