new korean hair do

hey gorgeous people!!! it's raining really heavy outside but its coming to a stop now. wow. i wanted it to rain longer. humph, its not even a bit cold. i just had dinner of chicken and potatoes and i have to eat my plums later. i came home from school at 2.50 today and there were 2 maintenance guys by the narrow entrance and their tools were taking up a lot of room so they moved to make way for me. then by accident one of the guys stepped on a cat and it screamed and wiggled like mad and it followed me all the way up the stairs. i had a hard time getting the door opened. today school was okay. there was a hole in the ceiling and my math test got postponed that was basically it.
i woke up today with my head at the end of the bed and my feet at my pillow. how i turned 180' on my tiny bed is beyond me.
yesterday i had a hair cut and i look superb adorable right now. i have a fringe and i look like jeongyeon from twice!! i really do hear people saying how korean i look with is so my style. i even have glasses to match! i might have been a korean in a past life thats why i feel like i can dance like those girl groups. my hairdresser was a nice dude and im happy with how it turned out. as expected when attending attending the lamest school in history (no exaggeration) i have a few asses with vendetta's against me because (also as expected, i am the envy of most wannabe females) they try to put you down at every chance and normally i ignore their comments because their obvious jealousy is hilarious to witness. today though they really milked it for all its worth and i got pissed so i spat back.
if youre a person from school then hello!! i really like it when you get jealous of me and make a fool of yourself in class. you know who you are cause theres like only 9 people in class.
tuesday are generally chill and yesterday was no exception. i had a valentines day dinner with ma and sissy at a cafe and we had pasta and chicken and soup and juice. it was all really good. i liked it. only thing about yesterday was i found out that a phone i had ordered online wasnt going to arrive dude to merchant cancellation. it's so weird because it was supposed to arrive like this week. i actually have survived without a phone about a little over a year because i think social media is a waste of time. thing is i need to make calls to my parents one day in public perhaps and i need some device that fits my ear. no phone now seems like.
monday nothing happened in school except i probably wished i was somewhere else the entire time. oh yeah after dinner me and sissy went for drinks. she is so amazing!! we had some sour chlorophyll drinks and it was matched with a very nice chat. then we went to a newly opened imported food store and i got this adorable my little pony juice that tastes exactly the same as a capri sun juice pouch. it is purple and comes with a holographic sticker. speaking of cute, i have some really cute things i wanna get if i have spare cash. 1)a mr buckwheat soft toy from goblin and 2)a japanese style school bag in pink and blue.
gotta go, theres stretches to do. love my lovelies

week crammed

fist bumps for you gorgeous people!! hey! so let me tell you how my week went. on monday, it was the first day of school since the new year holidays and i was excited to go because i hate being idle. so i went and it was one day before the cny celebration in school with no one was prepared for and i really wanted to get out of it. opportunity came when my chem teacher wanted a class during the celebration but it got the other class students really mad at us and they were causing us so much trouble. then came a twist, teacher did not need us anyways so we could perform and so we performed the next day. i had 2 good things out of tuesday i think. 1) ate pocky 2)i met my high school friend and soon to be engineer. we talked and he gave me life advice and made me feel happier over all. i dont remember why but i know that tuesday wasnt the best day for me. im not saying who made me so pissed at her but someone in school needs to know her place.
also i was i having a headache and sissy came to get me from school when an unfit driver just rammed our car from the back. he slammed our behind pretty hard and i felt my whole body jerk forward. it was totally not our fault, we were waiting behind a registering car to drive into our guarded community for like a long time and there was a line behind us and i think the driver forgot the break from the oil and he just went for it. i was pissed. the dude never even said sorry and it was his fault. now i love sissy but i feel like the only person she can be fierce with is me and that is so not okay. she apologized profusely to duchebag and for what reason i have no idea. and at one point she even asked him if he wanted money. ugh.
the next day i missed school because i had no class and i was so dizzy like that sparkle fairy in fairytopia. thursday was a holiday which i spent indoors working.
friday is today got home early because one class got cancelled. it's pretty good overall and my chem teacher forgot about the test she was going to give us! i just watched the 2 bonus episodes of goblin. yay!! i really love lee dongwook!! he is so my oppa. anyways i am just so glad that i found kdramas. the white people movie industry can go rot away because no one needs it. i should do a korean versus white drama post one day. maybe tomorrow. i really like the goblin soft toy that appears on the show so i really want to get one. i told my mom this and she was like nah!! but thats okay because i like goblin.
gotta go. see ya lovelies

ending cny holiday!

hello gorgeous people!! today is a sunday, the last day of my chinese new year holiday and i am honestly really excited to get back to school. i miss my classes and my free periods sleeping on the couch and my friends i laugh a lot with. i have been far from idle this holiday. except near the end when my throat and ear started hurting. that i get too dizzy to do anything than watch Puah Chu Kang and Modern Family. now puah chu kang is this singaporean sitcom and it is super hilarious. i remember watching it as a kid and just laughing at how silly they act. compare it to a white person's sitcom, it's the suite life of zack and cody! the series ended many years ago but the cast is still alive but they dont act anymore. i really recommend you watch this just to laugh. so what did i do this hols...

i did all my homework!

i got new glasses so i look more korean than ever!!

i filmed and edited a video you can watch here!! 

i went shopping for new clothes!! thank you h&m and uniqlo!!

i went practice driving with my mom and it was so tense!

i watched a movie.. la la land! 

i played tetris!

i painted word art!

and best of all i went to meet my best friends yesterday at parade mall!!

here's how it went yesterday. we said we'd meet at 7 at the entrance and the two of them were already there much earlier but they were walking around separately. i reached exactly at seven and said i'll meet them at the restaurant right away. so i met one friend there already and we ordered and sat by the time the last friend arrived. she was all like much punctuality and then show up 10 minutes late. ugh anyways we were eating when i saw 2 of my kampar friends and i really like those 2 people so we chatted for a while because they were there with like other people but it was just really nice to see them and then back to my high school friends, we had such a fun time talking and laughing like we did years ago so you kinda cherish their company more. then we walked around and bumped into another of our graduating classmates with her mom and sister and we were all so excited like yay!!! shes possibly back just for the cny holidays. shes in kl now and stuff. then we walked around the mall for something to give my teacher on our high school reunion which is today. i didnt go because i dont feel that well and because i couldnt get a ride. in the end we got him chocolates. and because i knew i wouldnt be going to see him today, i made him a card. it is so adorable and i drew apples and wrote chinese greetings on it. i passed it to my friend last night.

also i just tried for the first time, peanut m&m milk. it's pretty yummy but mostly because it costs a lot and the packaging was so kawaii. its like in those baby suck suck bottles and i used to have a million of those at home when i was in kindy. drinking of it reminded me of something when i was in standard one. i went to tesco one day and i saw this spritzer water bottle which was pink and had a pink strap and a cute white girl bear cub. really cute! so i bought it to bring to class and prove to class that there will be one cuter than me. i tried to drink it but it tasted funny, not at all like my home water so i poured it out and filled it with water from my house dispenser. i did it for a while you know, because no one knew that you shouldnt drink consistently from plastic.

dinner now

see ya lovelies.

my dealing with nightmares as an adult

hey you guys! its about 2am now and i actually went to bed at 11.20pm trying to go to bed. this whole week i had a mission and that was to sleep at 11 and wake at 8. it was working just fine. i guess until tonight. i know the worst time to think is at night but look at me right now, a busy clockwork with all gears well oiled that i dont think i will sleep till way later. part of why my post is this late at night is because i know writing is the thing that calms me down like a teddy to infants. gasp... there's noises outside. okay, calm down it's just the office buildings across our house. phew. i thought there was going to be a break in. a little unhinged, a little on edge, a bundle of nerves. a ''perfect'' state to be writing.
i was tired, my eyes were about to shut but when i closed my eyes i saw zombies who wanted a me with scoliosis. and i had just done my exercises earlier.
wait before i start this, i want to thank all my readers who read my posts with good intentions. thanks for your support. now i know there are some of you i may know due to unfortunately having the same religion as you only read to comment venomous word due to your envy of my good life. jokes on you all comments have to be approved by me before appearing. and i havent checked since early last year. point is, if youre not nice, im asking again that you dont even try to disturb me. leave me to my own business. i know its difficult to ignore me because i am so adorable so only love and nice things or get as far away from me as possible because i happen to be acquainted to kim jong un.
so i prayed and the zombies went away. but more evil thoughts were coming. i thought of all the times i was called annoying from primary to secondary school. i thought of all the times i was shy and was teased. it was a cycle you know, an evil thought comes, i pray it away, then another one comes. this hasnt happened in awhile. i have no idea why this is happening tonight of all nights. like what happened?!
i tried to breathe slowly, anything to slow my heart rate because i could hear my blood though my skin. i thought of the video i was watching before bed, The Return of Superman. it's a korean reality tv show where all the celebrity families hang out and the kids have fun. then i thought of myself. i realized that when i was at those kids' ages, like 4 years, i too was legitimately that happy and i always had fun playing with my fam. so i was happy, what happened then?! then it hit me. now that im older, i actually for some reason pay attention to people who dont matter. why do i waste time thinking about what people did to me or what people said to me when they dont really matter? why do i worry so much? these people arent relatives, they arent even friends, i have the choice to never see them again why do i let them waste my time and my energy. im young so time doesnt have much of a meaning to me. but i know that if i keep wasting time on people who i dont even know about, ill regret all the time i have wasted and i hate regretting things. there's no way back.
i know what matters to me. the people who have loved me all my life. family makes me happy i realised. even happier than when im writing something. they know me and love me for me and they stand by me no matter what. i should be thinking how blessed i am to have that. i am very loved. know that. and like in harry potter and voldermort, i believe that love will protect me from any evil of the world. i really shocked myself when i relised how loved i am and that its the only thing that matters to me. i was so affected how in school, even now there are people who are nasty just because their dad actually owns the school. think about it though, my school fees is actually what goes into your fake leather wallet.
im going to end happy. i have always been so filled with loved but growing up has blinded me. i sometimes with that a grim reaper would come and hypnotize me to forget everything in the world that has hurt me but that wont happen so its up to me. if you are someone i know from school, church or you were that annoying car blocking the drive thru, i forgive you and i choose to forget any hurt that you may have inflicted on me. i have hurt long enough, i choose to stop wasting precious time now and the ugliness has been removed.
if you need a mantra to calm you down or something, read this:
I AM VERY LOVED
I AM VERY LIKED
MY LIFE IS AMAZING
LIFE'S TOO SHORT TO BE BITTER
AND THE NASTY WORDS ARE NOT TRUE
THE PAST IS THE PAST
LOVE WILL PROTECT ME FROM HARM
THINK ONLY OF PEOPLE WHO MATTER
FAMILY WILL ALWAYS LOVE ME
ALWAYS FOR WHO I AM.
BE NO ONE ELSE BUT YOURSELF YA HEAR!
i think this will make me as happy as those 4 year olds on youtube. its late and my pulse is normal, a funny video before bed? yes! see ya lovelies and know that nothing else matters but yourself and those people you call fam!