we ate, then we shopped! while having lunch, dad's dentures broke and he wiggled it in front of us but okay. i think i may have threw up in front of a meal before so i know accidents happens. i bought a DVD of the chinese drama series that i liked. love 020. yang yang is the best! then we headed home! of course we stopped at H&M before that! course i asked if we could get a baskins robins cake before that but we didnt.
i talked to both of my best friends last night. one of them is busy with her school play and it's so cute! i really want to support her and watch whatever is it and it's happening at a time where i'd be in kl too! but i cant go because i'd be staying a bit out of the way from her venue! anyways im so proud of her!! she acted last year but she'll be directing this year!
another friend who i really like to bug is off being with other smart people exactly like her hahahaha!
i did some really fun things by myself yesterday! i imagined that i had a converstation with seventeen in mandarin because they all became mandarin speaking out of the blue! it was so fun and the situation was that we were having a meal together!
last night i tried explaining myself to someone. i know the comments are switched off but i want you to just reflect to yourself. what if something happened that haunted you for over a year and youre on the brink of getting over it or just got over it. you forgave and you asked for forgiveness but the other parties just want to strike you down and it makes you shudder in fear and you want to let someone close to you know and just calm you. say something like 'you dont deserve a life of fear' or something like ''ignore the haters and you can trust 'me' to get you through it and forget the fear'' but instead you hear stuff like, 'you know you were in the wrong too right?' or 'you have to change yourself' and the you get so sick of hearing it, just so mad!! so you say, 'i dont need to be hearing that, i dont need to be hearing something i heard for a million times when the haunting just started' BUT, when you say that, you get scolded, ei why you so close minded? Why you so not teachable? Why you so sensitive?
Do you know how sick i am of those questions? I used to be sad when you gave me the look like you were done with me but now when you give me that look, i feel so mad.
I DONT NEED A REMINDER OF THE HAUNTING THAT IS NOT WHAT I NEED.
Do you know how sick i am of those questions? I used to be sad when you gave me the look like you were done with me but now when you give me that look, i feel so mad.
I DONT NEED A REMINDER OF THE HAUNTING THAT IS NOT WHAT I NEED.
im not trying to teach or whatever. but wouldnt that happening make you lose faith in a person? repulse you so much that you swear you never want to confide in that person ever again?
i now swear silence and will be working alone happily. i wasnt planning a post today but i have to write to get this matter off my chest. i needed to see my thoughts in writing and now i feel better! okay i shall do something related to seventeen now.
